||[Jul. 19th, 2011|03:10 pm]
an amateur historian
i remember being on the green river. it was early in the morning probably three days into the trip. i liked how the aluminum frame on new red boat allowed cameron to stand and row at the same time. secretly a group of us got drunk one night and it was suggested we liberate the rattlesnake the paleontologist captured in a pillowcase. there a botanist on that trip too. and my friend mr. call. like a dream anymore, these memories. everything fades into the distance.
decided to drive to the office this morning. not having the car registered yet leaves me at risk for a ticket though... and that's something i simply cannot afford these days. have been able to get a lot completed here though. spoke to the estate attorney this morning. he and i have been incommunicado since that hearing in richfield. i was left so deflated by what was said that i needed some time to recover. anyway, i do have an action plan though and can focus on completion i think in the coming weeks.
are you still in negotiations regarding your dad's affairs? it's been...well, years. what is the freakin' hold-up?
yeah, i am. can you believe it? it's finally coming to a close, though. thankfully. and yes, it has been going on for years. when my dad passed and this whole process began, i was told by the first attorney i'd hired this was the most complex probate case he'd ever seen... my dad was divorced, he'd owned a couple of businesses (one of which he'd just sold but the buyer was under breach of contract), there were all kinds of people wanting to rifle through his pockets, my family was a mess... god, it has been such a mess.
so there's the hold up. i had to sort of moonlight as a ceo until i could sell the remaining business, which took much longer than anyone could have anticipated with this economy and all; i had to sue this other dude for breach of contract (and won that judgement, btw); got threats from some aunts of mine who were trying to extort from the estate; had a bunch of trouble with my own siblings, not to mention some delinquent tax issues that needed to be resolved, small town lawyering, family drama... god, you name it.
but anyway, it's almost done. hopefully. or at least i'm almost to the point where i can legally walk away from it all. hands down, this has been the most difficult thing i've ever taken on in my lifetime. it's been a terrible experience. i'm not the same man i was when it started. i'm exhausted by it all, really.
and how are you?
Jesus, I can only imagine. Just the thought of the smallest legal process makes my hair stand on end. The stress of being at the mercy of others and in constant conflict must be harrowing on the best of days! I hope that the end of it all comes swiftly!
I'm fine, just feeling a bit restless while I feel completely fucking wiped out. The buying-selling process was really soul-sucking and now I'm just stagnant but our house needs...help. It's not speaking to me! I can't fix it if it doesn't tell me what it wants! ha
i feel the same way... not the kind of dude who enjoys conflict. at all. and i really do feel like it's changed me. i'm just not the same anymore. there are small details--pieces of my identity--that were lost in this process. parts of me that i sincerely cherished might now be gone forever.
but oh well.
as for your and ryan's new home! and baby! jesus, everyone's having babies! couldn't be more thrilled for you and your family, old friend. and having a new home has got to be exciting. take your time with it... it'll come. you have to hold hands with the place for a while. you'll find your favorite places to stand. and to sit. and there will no doubt be small spaces where you'll have the best view and important decisions will be made. that's when the magic happens... after some time.
congratulations to you two. tell your special fella i said hello. tell clode i said that too.